Okay, I’m going to try this again.

I think it’s been about a year now since I blogged last. To be honest, I haven’t even been around to visit in a long time and I do feel bad about that. I am going to try to be better about that however. So, how have you all been? I hope you are all well and happy.

 

I’m kind of sad. We have to have our little dog put to sleep. A couple of months ago I noticed his lip looked swollen.  I didn’t think much of it at first but it kept getting bigger and bigger. He’s actually my son’s dog who is in N.Y. so I called him to tell him about it. He told me to take him to the vet and have it checked out. Well, I made an appointment thinking that he might have an infected tooth and antibiotics would solve the problem. Not to be. It turns out that he has melanoma. I couldn’t believe it when the Vet told me that and tears instantly came to my eyes. The tumor is growing so fast and it’s getting harder for him to eat, in fact, it’s taking over his entire mouth and under his tongue. Soon it will affect his breathing as well. The worse part is, he’s still his old self for the most part and still likes to chase squirrels and other dogs and runs around like a puppy. Because it’s our sons dog he came home to handle the sad job of taking him in and I’m glad he did because I don’t know if I could have done it. It breaks my heart just to look at him knowing what has to be done.

 

It is going to be hard getting use to not having him around too. Even though Snuff is my sons dog he is more attached to me as he’s been with us the last year or so.  He follows me everywhere. And I mean everywhere. He sits on the arm of my chair next to me, he follows me around the house and waits outside the bathroom door when I’m in there. He watches every move I make and never lets me out of his sight. He’s a Chihuahua mix but he thinks he’s King Kong and will try to take on any dog no matter how big they are. If I didn’t have him on his leash he’d chase down any other dog in sight. Anyway, Bill is going to make an appointment tomorrow. That tumor will just get bigger and bigger until it chokes him and we don’t want him to suffer that way and we can tell it’s starting to do just that. Poor little guy.

 

It’s nice having Bill home for awhile but wish it was for another reason. The holidays are coming up so hopefully he’ll be able to make it home for them.  I sure hope so anyway.

 

I’m so sorry that my first blog in a year is such a downer but that’s what’s on my mind right now. I promise my next one won’t be so depressing. It might be a couple days or so after he’s gone though. Hopefully I won’t be a big baby when Bill takes off with him. I thought about going with him then I thought no, I don’t think I can do it. He still remembers Bill and is always happy to see him when he comes home so he’ll do just fine going with him. I just wish it didn’t have to be.

 

Okay, enough of that. If I keep talking I’ll start crying. So until next time….Take care and be good to yourself. See ya soon. xox